I just don't know where to start.
We just completed our 2nd IUI with a big. fat. negative.
It sucks so bad having to have blood work done to check to see if you arer pregnant and them say "I'm so sorry..."
UGH! Why is it that we were making so much progress since December, and now we have taken a million steps back? I don't get it. I'm so hurt and confused and just really lost.
We have decided to take some time off, and we are going to pray that God will lead us where we need to be. We have one more try at IUI before moving on to IVF.
Besides the expense of IVF, it's much more demanding medically, emotionally and really just having to be off of work. Did you know with the egg retrieval you have SURGERY!? ACK!
I know that God's hand is in all of this and He has already planned everything out for us, and if/when we do get pregnant with our own biological child, it will only make us love and appreciate him/her more. They say that people who face infertility have a different kind of love towards their children...idk.
Well, this is pretty much all I have to say and to be quite honest, this is pretty much all I wanna say.
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- A is 24 years old and J is 26 years old and we have been married for 5 years. We just bought our first home October 14, 2008 and have spent all our time loving re-doing it. We are faithfully following Christ and serving him daily! We have been trying to have a baby for about 4 years now and we continue to praise HIM for all he is doing and will do! This blog is a little glimpse into our lives! =) Enjoy and GOD BLESS!
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im so sorry amanda...i can honestly say i know EXACTLY how you feel and will not tell you its all Gods plan and will not tell you it gets better and will not tell you to quit trying then it will work...honestly at this point none of those are comforting...i still have faith that things happen for a reason but we want to know the reason!!!! you can only truck on as long as your heart allows and you and your husband will value eachother so much more with each step. IVF is honestly extremely scary but the biggest ride of it all! the retrieval is a piece of cake! easiest part of it all i promise! been there done that! dont be scared of it and trust me the time will come when you will look at eachother and make the decision for IVF without even questioning eachother. it just hits you out of left field then boom, the ride begins! i wont tell you the next IUI will work and i wont tell you IVF will work but i will tell you you will never know until you try and once you have you know you have attempted everything possible to try and have your own little one and thats definitely comforting...you will feel it one day i promise that! i was mad at God and sometimes still am about everything for giving me a "broken" reproductive system but then i remind myself to thank him for an amazing husband that will go through all of it with me and thank Him for giving the knowledge to doctors that they need to help in every way possible! good luck and enjoy your break, they are always needed!!! if or when you decide on IVF dont hesitate to ask me! i will tell you step by step! haha chin up!(but keep it down if you want, you're allowed ;)
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