- For me to be able to cope with all of the emotions that I struggle with and empty my feelings and remind myself of why we are doing this and why God will never fail us.
2. For the silent sufferers.
The latter one was just brought to my attention about a week ago. I remember being the silent sufferer that had no one to turn to, no one who understood my pain and no one who truly just "got it". I turned to message boards that offered empty hope and little spiritual hope and growth and a mainly lot of snarky comments. I just had to eventually wean myself away from that addiction. I started blogging and it feels really good. I have turned to scripture more often times than not and I really like that about myself.
I know of a couple of girls who have came to me just to have someone to vent to, and you know, I think this is God's plan for me. Or part of it, at least. In scripture, He tells us that God gives us our circumstances and paths so that we may grow from it and will better help others who are suffering.
Infertility is so complex. There are so many different stages of grief in dealing with infertility, and once you pass through one stage, you aren't guaranteed to not return to it. There is a lot of denial, depression, guilt, hope, and more.
Although my ranting/raving/whatever may not be you guys's favorite thing to read, but it does offer the true emotions of this journey. It's tough, y'all. Not gonna lie. But, I am truly so so so thankful that He chose me to travel this road. WHOAH. Did I just say that?? Yep. I am. Being able to help so many other women that deal with this battle makes it all worth the while. And being able to grow so close to God is the most amazing thing out of all of this.
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