Snuggle In Little Guys! (Or girls!!!)

So, today was transfer day. I have been relatively cool, calm, and collected up until today. I have been on pins and needles wondering how my 4 little babies have been doing (and if we still had 4) since Monday. I left work at 11:00 a.m. to get to UMC around 12:30 to have blood drawn and walk to the room where the embryologist is with the lab. It was a LONG drive. I thought about all of the possibilities. What if there were none left? What if they were perftect blastocysts? I was giddy, I was happy, I was scared. I have been soooo anxious through this whole process. I've been "Cautiously optimistic" so to speak. I want this to work sooooo bad, but am afraid of how I'd feel if I get my hopes up too high.

Well, we finally got to the little embryology room and I got changed into another beautiful gown and the lovely hair-cap thing and footsie covers. Jeremy got to wear a yellow robe like when we visited our niece in the NICU. We forgot to ask our nurse to take a picture of us together because we were busy chatting and then it got busy. Dr Phy came in and greeted us and then the embryologist came out and showed her the images of our little embryos. We actually only had 3 left today at this point. One blastocyst and two compacted morulas. (These are our BABIES! =)

The top picture is a blastocyst. At this stage, the inner cell mass (The inside part that will form the baby) and the ring around the outside (this will be the placenta) will eventually "hatch" from the shell that it's in and begin to attach to the uterin wall. In a "normal" pregnancy, this is where the embryo is travelling from the falloppian tubes to the uterus.

The bottom picture is a morula. The morula contains about 30 cells that are so tightly woven together, a lot like Monkey Bread. This is actually immediately before the blastocyst stage. We have 2 of these that we are praying for! They are basically a day behind and are considred "weak and unstable".

So, when Dr Phy found out how many embryos we had left and the quality of them, she suggested transferring all THREE. We both F.R.O.Z.E. We were set on 2 max and that was it. Well, Dr Phy said she couldn't guarantee we wouldn't have triplets, but she was very, very comfortable with the fact we would most likely not. (But we decided if we do, it's because that is the gift God wants us to receive, and that's that! How do you pick which one to eliminate?! I couldn't!)

So, we transferred all three. Yes, call us crazy, insane, whatever. I don't care! I have worked sooooo hard trying to make sure this worked perfectly and I would do whatever it takes to get a baby out of this! NO we aren't gonna be "just like Octomom" or whatever. But, we really could just use more of your prayers to make sure we have at least one sweet baby from this cycle. I am having a hard time right now because I have faced so many negative pregnancy tests and just want one to finally come back positive. I am having a really hard time being excited and optimistic right now. I need God to fill me with his peace. I also only need to hear positive and uplifting encouragement, and not questions on why we chose 3 and all that. It was our decision and I fully support it 100%.