2010 Year In Review

Lots of people have been focusing on the past year and the hardships and blessings that were given to them. At this time in my life, I am truly thankful for 2010! It was a very crazy year! A roller coaster with loops and flips and even a part where you go backwards through the ride. But, I love roller coasters and I'm very grateful that God chose me to experience the things I did! I will try to review the year the best I can, and if I leave anything out, so sorry!

February - Found out my sister in law and her husband were expecting. This was the hardest thing I faced all year long. I was filled with jealousy, anger, resentment, and all of the things that only Satan provides. I'm sure he was just having a ball with my heart during that time. After attending church the next Sunday, I felt the Holy Spirit move over me and give me peace. After confessing to them my ugly heart and hateful words, I felt better.

March - I had laparoscopy #1 and HSG #1 (I was asleep!). This was to check for endometriosis and if my tubes were blocked. Everything was all clear. I stayed on Clomid 2 more cycles to help me ovulate. My best friend announced that she was pregnant and this was hard, although not as hard as before.

At the end of May, I decided I needed a break to get closer to God, and to escape from the pain and frustration with being unable to become pregnant. May was also the 4 year mark for us trying. May 26, my niece had her baby Kenzie. It was a blessing to be there the evening after she had her and just love all over this precious girl.

July 18 - My precious niece, Emmalyn was born 10 weeks early. She spent the next 5 weeks and a few days in NICU learning how to breathe and eat. It was very emotional for everyone, and it was a very trying time. I believe that Em was to come early to restore all of our faith in God. She is now 5 1/2 months old and a perfect miracle from the one and only God! I give him all of the glory for healing her and helping her grow and develop! I believe that at this point, I was not a mommy yet because He needed me to be her aunt. He needed me to pray every day for this baby and give everything I could to her!

August - I made the appointment with our new Reproductive Endocrinologist, DR Jennifer Phy. Our first appointment wasn't until December, and it was a very hard time waiting, but it was just another step in our ultimate goal! Now that I look back, 4 months really wasn't that long!

November - My best friend, Nickki, had her baby Rylei. I was so excited to finally meet the final girl of the year! She was (still is, of course) a beautiful baby and I'm so thankful that I am apart of her life! Nickki is pretty much my twin. We are identical and we argue all the time, but it keeps us on our toes! Our poor husbands! They are always having to be referees! She is my sister from another mister and I wouldn't trade her for anything!

December - We finally got to go to our RE appointment! And by God's amazing grace, we were given an answer - I have a septate uterus. After taking an awful hormone replacement, I was scheduled for two tests. One was an HSG #2 (I was awake for this one!) test (which was AWFUL!) and the other was an IVP, which was bad, but not as bad as the first. I just have a bruise from the IV.

I know there were a lot more events in between, but these are the highlights of my year. Although, tough, I am truly thankful for all of the experiences, good and bad, that God allowed me to go through. And everyone is right, He will not give me more than I can handle, and I'm truly grateful for the ability to test and strengthen my faith! =) I hope you are all blessed in this new year!