.: Faithfully

So, today was the first day of my injections for our first In-Vitro cycle. I am soooo excited to travel this road and I have such high hope for success. Science has it's statistics of percentages and the possibilities of it not working, and that is great, but I have trust and faith in the Lord that he will fulfil the desires of our hearts. I know that He has been working dilligently on our spirit and is helping us to first long him. I have been so lonely lately. I LOVE my husband more than anything, but something has been missing. (I shared this with Jeremy, by the way!) I am still a new Christian. I was saved July of 2008. I got very involved with the Church we attended and even taught a Sunday School class. Then I let Satan take hold of my thoughts and my ways and stopped going all together. Now, I am soo lonely for God's attention and companionship again. I am feeling such a strong desire to go to Church and fellowship with Christians. I am NOT outgoing at all, but I am pushing myself to become this way, to grow closer to Him.

People comment and ask me all the time how I am so strong or how inspiring I am. But let me tell you, I haven't always been. I have been mad at God. I have tried to take this into my own hands. I have quit. I have wandered. This has got me no-where. One day after I was around a couple of people and their small children, I became very jealous and my heart started to hurt, as it usually did. I left the place I was at and began to drive. As I drove I began to cry. I begged and pleaded with God to take my desire and make it real. I asked Him to release me from the chains of self-pity and sorrow and jealousy and replace them with joy and love for Him. I told him that I was giving this battle 100% to Him and that I trusted Him to handle this and that I know He can and will make it work for us. I can't say that I felt an immediate peace that night, but it did come a few weeks later. I prayed every time I would begin to feel sad or sorry for myself for God to give me a peace that passes all understanding and to continue to help me work on my faith in him. I can say right now I have that. I am very excited about this journey like I said. I am a little anxious, but soooo very excited to know that in just 35 days we could find out we will be parents.

What does the Bible say to us about Faith? Here are a few scriptures I have found that I love and that help encourage me to trust in Him. As I was searching for some new scriptures, I came across this "The word faith comes from the Greek word "pistis". Pistis simply means to accept the truth as it is and to be completely content with His will.

1 Peter 5:7
Let Him have all your worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything that concerns you.

John 14:27
I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart! And the peace I give isn't fragile like the peace the world gives. So don't be troubled or afraid.

Philippians 4:6-7
Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything; tell God your needs, and don't forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this, you will experience God's peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your thoughts and your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ.
^^^^^^^^^^^^^MY FAVORITE SCRIPTURE ON FAITH^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Psalms 40:1-3
I waited patiently for God to help me; then He listened and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the pit of despair, out from the bog and the mire, and set my feet on a hard, firm path and steadied me as I walked along. He has given me a new song to sing, of praises to our God. Now many will hear of the glorious things He did for me, and stand in awe before the Lord, and put their trust in Him.

Psalms 34:17-19
Yes, the Lord hears the good man when he calls to Him for help, and saves him out of all his troubles. The Lord is close to those whose heart is breaking; He rescues those who are humbly sorry for their sins. The good man does not escape all troubles - he has them, too. But the Lord helps him in each and every one.

Deuteronomy 31:6
Be strong! Be courageous! Do not be afraid of them! For the Lord your God will be with you. He will neither fail you nor forsake you.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust the Lord completely; don't ever trust yourself. In everything you do, put God first, and He will direct you and crown your efforts with success.

Romans 8:28
And we know that all that happens to us is working for our good if we love God and are fitting into His plans.