ONE WEEK!!!!!!!!!

Until we meet our Reproductive Endocrinologist, Dr. Jennifer Phy! I am so excited and really not even scared AT ALL (which is very much not like me!!)! I cannot wait to go meet her and see what she has to say about moving forward! I am excited for a new plan towards our ultimate goal: to be parents! I pray that we will finally see the positve pregnancy test and watch our lives change as we welcome a new child into the world. I have been feeling a small tug on my heart regarding adoption as well. I'm not sure if it is because I'm starting to feel that it's nearing the end for us, or what. I never really had a strong desire to adopt, I just always felt that I would have children of my own. I guess I thought that you can't buy love and happiness. But I do know that is not true. Or maybe it was that our families wouldn't see the baby as our own child it be labeled as a outcast, a misfit. I sometimes feel that if we were to adopt that our family wouldn't have enough love for him or her as they would a biological child. I think I feel a bit of failure towards my husband and our parents if I can't carry or even give birth to a child of our own. I don't really know why I'm feeling these things, but I know that God is doing some work on my heart, and I'm all for it! I have pushed his requests away for some time, and I need to let him have the reigns! Adoption isn't about buying love or happiness. It's about nurturing the children of God - which we all are! We are called to care for the orphans and the widows! I really am excited to see where God is going to lead us in our future, and am really curious to see why the window of adoption


So, whether we will be able to have children of our own, which is a true blessing from our Heavenly Father, or wheteher He chooses us to nurture and raise a child from another womb, or even if the doors to parenthood are shut, I believe that I will be able to praise Him! I will praise HIM through the storm and He alone is worthy of all of my praise! I am not worthy of His gifts and I am truly thankful for those he has already lent me! =) Blessings to you all!