IUI

Well, that is the game plan. What's an IUI  (Intra-Uterine Insemination) you ask? Click this linky HERE if you wanna know all the medical details. What it is not: it is not where they place your eggs and sperm in a "petri dish" and make a baby. That is IVF - In-Vitro Fertilization. And NO, my chances of multiples aren't increased because of this technique. The Clomid (to induce ovulation) does not increase my chances, either! A lot of people have that misconception that because we are taking fertility meds and are doing the IUI we will have twins, triplets or quads or even become like octo-mom! However, that isn't the case! If God decides to bless us with multiples, it is because it was HIS plan! *I secretly want twins!* Science has advanced so much that even with IVF, they are only implanting 1-2 embryo's in the uterus now, rather than the 3 or 4 like before. It's amazing how much things are changing! I love to read about the new advancements medicine is making regarding infertility!

This whole process of IUI really reminds me of when I was in high school and was involved in FFA. I remember having to help and watched numerous artificial inseminations on sows (girl pigs in lamens terms) and it was kinda icky and kinda cool, too!

Anyways, we are super excited to have a game plan! I know that God will give me the desires of my heart, because His word says so.

Also, y'all keep me in your prayers: I am going to see a specialist about being diagnosed with ADD/ADHD. I have always struggled with school, work, housework, any task that takes focusing and really am bad at procrastinating to the point where I have almost lost my job. This is very hard for me to talk about because it isn't something I'm very proud of, but I'm so ready for help! I was telling my co-teacher this morning when I try to think, my brain feels like a super-highway full of roads and bridges and intersections with cars zooming all over the place...I just want a slow-paced country road! If that makes sense!

"Infertility is a heart-wrenching, faith-questioning, relationship-testing, life-altering experience. April is Infertility Awareness Month. Whether a friend, a family member, a colleague or yourself has fought through this difficult fate that MILLIONS of people are fighting day in and day out, post this as your status if you or someone you know has walked to hell & back for the chance to be a MOM"

This was one of those "repost" things on Facebook, and I generally don't do them, but this one hit home with me. We are in the midst of this horrible battle, and it has been a long 5 years! Even though we did the surgery to remove everything, are getting ready to go through our first IUI cycle, we still aren't guaranteed a baby. I had a breakdown last night (well, at midnight or so) when I realized that I still don't have any greater chance of conceiving. Part of me wants to not go through with the expensive IUI because what if it doesn't work? Then we are out all of that time of missed work, putting others in a bind, the financial burden will be tough, and then we would have to do it all over again. I'm not sure how much of this I can take emotionally anymore, either. I have prayed for peace regarding the choices we have to make, but still, I'm really confused. I know that God will provide the peace in His time and will allow us a chance to be parents in His time.

Some days are really starting to suck again. I have been "moping" more and crying more. I have been angry lately and really resentful. I hate that I've been doing this to myself, and I feel it's now time to get back on my knees and pray more. Satan has been doing a number on my spirit and just tearing me down. It's just really hard because this is the greatest desire of my heart and I just feel so empty inside. I think it's okay to feel this way sometimes, but I really need to get rid of it. This is not me anymore and this is not from the love of God.

Team Emmalyn!

Hey everyone! Here is the link to our March of Dimes page! We are in dire need of walkers and if you are interested, PLEASE let me or Jennifer Young know ASAP! The walk will be April 30th, in Abilene. It is only 3 miles. This is an amazing foundation who allowed my niece a chance at a healthy life after being born 10 weeks early and spending a  little over 5 weeks in the NICU at Abilene Regional (the best NICU in this area!)


Please consider joining this team or if God leads you to make a donation, you can do both on my website, listed below! Thank you for all of your help!

http://www.marchforbabies.org/personal_dashboard.asp?w=4786384&si=04F920AA-1FDD-47B7-B1D6-06DDE87E888C&walk=company&u=emsaunt&ft=1